A depression that something may solve.

[sleepy]

Damn, I hit the 'Back' button.
It gave me a rerun.

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

research the last few years has shown that prolonged depression shrinks various areas of the brain (such as the hippocampus and prolateral pre-frontal cortex) and may re-wire many other areas in ways which tend to permanently increase anxiety and neurosis. scary shit.

i cannot get back on to mood meds quickly enough. going off of them the past 1.5 years has been a failure in almost every way. anyway, this monday is my assessment interview at a new facility i'm trying out. wish me luck.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTuygg7TD6U"]Starfucker - Julius [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDE

Starfucker - Mona Vegas - YouTube


in addition to being pick-me-ups songs for me, the guy's voice is very similar to my natural voice, so i could definitely see myself singing those songs one day.

bonus shot: last friday i showed valamir cleaver the willie nelson song "family bible" on guitar over skype. that was good fun. he finally started his classes.

 

[sleepy]

Is valamir studying guitar?

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

no, he's studying the reproducive tendencies of overanxious pachyderms in botswana.

no, he's learning how to cram a length of wood down his throat. (and please don't interrupt him!)

no, he took juggling to a strange new extreme that even -i- don't know what to do with.


this has been your host, al jaffee. good night, all!

 

[LeeVanCleef]

research the last few years has shown that prolonged depression shrinks various areas of the brain (such as the hippocampus and prolateral pre-frontal cortex) and may re-wire many other areas in ways which tend to permanently increase anxiety and neurosis. scary shit.

i cannot get back on to mood meds quickly enough. going off of them the past 1.5 years has been a failure in almost every way. anyway, this monday is my assessment interview at a new facility i'm trying out. wish me luck.

Oh, I wish you the best of luck... you'll need it! Right before I started on my fourth round of those bastards, I read about 30 pages of this book:

Amazon.com: Anatomy of an Epidemic: Magic Bullets, Psychiatric Drugs, and the Astonishing Rise of Mental Illness in America (9780307452429): Robert Whitaker: Books

Been too scared to pick it up since then. And don't let 'em give you Zoloft, because it doesn't fucking work!

 

[sleepy]

It doesn't work, but do they inflict side effects, pain, etc.?

 

[LeeVanCleef]

Not really... the first week or so really makes the head feel like it's on a magical mystery tour, but, after that, outside of some basic anxiousness... nothing.

 

[StevOz]

The human condition, something we all are part of, though I'm somewhat confused, jaded or otherwise amused on how any drug can or should ease that of which we are? They really just appease me.


Ooops forgot the track. :)

Always Look On The Bright Side of Life - Life Of Brian (Monty Python) Lyrics - YouTube

 

[sleepy]

Is it a case of too much obligation to our dear society, and with no stability?

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

let me go on the record as saying that i utterly despise this internet site. i just spent an hour typing out one long-ass reply, trying to post it, and immediately being told that "you are not logged in anymore," then trying to duplicate it again and being given some other kind of error message. back-shifting in FF to discover my words didn't work either, so it's maybe a FF problem as well. whatever. see you when i see you (hah).

EDIT: no, i don't really despise the site. just angry.

 

[LeeVanCleef]

let me go on the record as saying that i utterly despise this internet site. i just spent an hour typing out one long-ass reply, trying to post it, and immediately being told that "you are not logged in anymore," then trying to duplicate it again and being given some other kind of error message. back-shifting in FF to discover my words didn't work either, so it's maybe a FF problem as well. whatever. see you when i see you (hah).

Wait! Come back! What meds did they put you on? Did they magically make you feel better and, if so, what are they? I need answers! Because I feel like this...

 

[sleepy]

And me, I am not on meds and I REALLY GET PISSED WHEN MY BROWSER DOES THAT TO ME!
If I am typing loong, I TRY to REMEMBER to write it in Notepad and COPY/PASTE the writing so that THAT SHIZZ doesn't happen, oh no, but SOMETIMES I AM SO EAGER TO WRITE THAT I THEN FORGET TO DO THAT...

Hey Ike, take it easy and do drop in.

 

[GSGregg]

Hey, Ike;

I often and easily spend over an hour typing, whether my post is long-assed or not, due to a certain 'anality' about proof-reading, spell-checking (due to errant keystrokes rather than any word-construction cluelessness) and 'smilie' selection. I don't recall any "you are no longer logged in" hiccups on this site (I guess those memory pills don't work---wait a minute! When did I start taking memory pills?! What? I didn't? Okay; never mind.), but I get them a lot over at VPF.O if I don't show some sign of life every few minutes. Usually it's when I go to Preview Post and get "This menu has been disabled" which is explained by "You no longer have permission to.....(whatever it says next)".

My first reaction was to hit 'Back' and check my login on the Home page, but doing so usually lost me all of what I had typed---but they provided a nice info-box about not hitting the 'Back' button. The preferred technique is to highlight and Copy (or right-click and Select All, then copy to clipboard---kinda does what sleepy does with Notepad, right?) so you can replenish your Reply box if it's empty when you come back from re-logging in.

What I've been doing when I anticipate a long-assed episode is open two browser searches and if my login evaporates I just minimize the page with my reply on it and log in again on the other Home page if need be. When I return to the Reply box, it's still populated(?). Of course, if it's really full, I might highlight and copy anyway just in case.....

Whaddaya know? A long-assed post after all! It must be time for my 'smilie' selection; uicide:
How's that?

 

[sleepy]

Yeah, I hate depression. And everybody else's opinions.

Unless I like their opinions.

But not on a headache.

Yeah.

No.

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

i don't despise the site- pardon me for saying that. typing on a tablet can be a real PITA, and before that one post i hadn't lost a post-attempt in many years. kind of a perfect shit storm from my end, and a pretty silly reason to lose one's composure. oh well.

thx for the replies.

 

[StevOz]

How about that man on the moon?

R.E.M. Man On the Moon - YouTube

 

[sleepy]

That is a Great video!

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

he was my favorite comedian / performance artist along with steve martin. too bad carrey was such a canned ham in the movie.

anyway, the depression about living in a dying civilisation still comes and goes at times. meanwhile, seems like most people keep themselves expertly distracted so as not to deal with such unpleasantness.

me? i try to compromise, now... holding the emptiness of existence in one meditative palm, the visceral need for involvement in my dominant hand.

still hard work... no easy solutions to this stuff, it seems.

 

[GSGregg]

Hey, Ike;

Maybe a nice new car will cheer you up?

http://www.vincelewis.net/unsoldcars.html

 

[sleepy]

Darn it. None of those lots are anywhere in L.A.
Could it be a hoax, and those shots are just temporary "shipping yards"?

 

[Itchigo]

Send one of those cars my way. In another 6 months my car will be 20.

 

[GSGregg]

Could it be a hoax,?

Huh? Nobody lies on the internet, right?

When the piece came to me as an email, there were no blank frames; looks like someone took exception to being exposed.

Itchigo; 20 years? Just a toddler. Here's 460K miles' worth of oxidized red paint---I once thought 500K was a cinch, but ~forty cents per mile for gas may have shot that in the foot. We'll see.....

Oh---it's been back on the ground since January and doing well.

 

[Isaac Sauvage]

nobody has ever lied on the internet-- it's both doctrine and observable fact!

 

[mrschultz]

That page with all the cars is pretty funny.

There are huge lots like that I drive over when I take the Walt Whitman bridge, always full of many hundreds if not thousands of new cars.

It does give the impression week after week that they are always the same. But the ships and trains nearby should be a clue that it is a constant flow of new ones coming in... :)

 

[Itchigo]

Itchigo; 20 years? Just a toddler.

Oh yeah? Here's what the Escort replaced (I still miss it).

1st pic: As I got it in 1996.

2nd Pic: After I rebuilt the engine.

3rd Pic: My "custom" carb preheat setup.

Look at those PERFECT fuel lines. I bent them myself.