I get a divorce, have a lung collapse, quit smoking, go thousands of dollars into dept, fall into a river and get washed away, car breaks down, work slows to a crawl, and yet what is the worse that any of you can say about me? That I get upset over my posting dissapearing? That when I get upset, I stay upset? That I don't like being lied to?
Some of us have a hard time getting through each and every winter, we find it most depressing. Still, I held my head up, I pushed through. I think I did very well at this site, this year and find myself banned for things that I did not say, agreeing to things that were never said, and what ever else the reason d' joure is. It was not fair.
I do get upset when my posts are fucked with. This last one was one that nobody, even AJ obviously would dissagree with. nic. just didn't like the sound of it, or perhaps that it was me saying it. If one person here thinks that that post would have been removed from that thread had someone else said it, then I would say you just don't pay attention.
You don't think that that is enough, do you. I agree. So nicolas.b removed my post, that started it, but I told nicolas.b that I understood that the site would not want that post to linger and that because they have read it that they can delete it.
THAT POST WAS IN THE MESSAGES TO THE STAFF AREA.
Why then would he move a message to the staff out of messages to the staff and into this argument clinic? What is the point of that? And why does he not move all posts into the AC? Each and every one could be argued with I guess. That pissed me off, and that is where my mistake came from. I asked for it to be removed from the AC because it showed as a thread that I started, instead of one that nic. started and I mearly responded to. Now, stupid me to think if someone starts a thread that someone else can inject their heart felt opinion in it! But I did, I'm sorry to all that that put out or put upon, but I doupt that was anyone, 'cept maybe nic., but I doupt that as well. Nobody needs to agree, or even hear what I say, but to silence it, that is another matter, and no one should feel that they are free to do that. You see people, that this was not about creed, race, gender, religion, sex, politics, weather, animals or anything other that what I thought needed to be done at AJ's to make asking for donations fair, and reporting on donations honest. Nothing more, and I had more, believe me. Out of line? To suggest such a thing? that the site should have a bit of maintainence? That honest numbers should be used when reporting on donations? Come on. Do you really? Ok, other than bob, do you really?
You have got to have something else against me. Do I shock you when I talk about things as I see them, instead of chit chat and talk about things as would be best for talking about? do you guys understand what I just said? I don't. I mean I know, it's just hard to say sometimes. I need to slow down, I hope you don't mind and will bear with me. That assumes that someone is still reading this. I hope those that are ignoring me is still reading because come on, you guys know your selves, don't you think that for you guys to ignore me is punishment that just don't fit the crime. I do deserve at least for you guys to not turn your backs on me, don't I. Or do you think doing that is not that big of deal? Those that are ignoring me reading this? Yes, I'm as stupid as the lot of you often enough. But I hope you guys are not ignoring me, just not responding. Not that I hope you are not answering. It is a big deal, by the way.
You guys have no idea how often I have to read what I type and edit it as I go. Nic., man, or should I call you boss, or should i HAVE, I mean. I read what I had just typed and it might look like this line. punctuation mostly like the ' and ll (I'll read) I make up for that by reading more, but it concerns me. My father did get sinial, but was much older. I use k's alot in the wrong places. At my age it would have to be something else. The i HAVE is on purpose.
I can't believe that you guys think that I threatened to come after your persons. I know that I made no agreement to be treated any less than anyone else. So why are we here?